REFLECTION HISTORY

 

A big fight was happening between a lady and a guy on the bus. Others were also interfered with in that and hitting that guy. Alex was looking at all these near the window seat. His grandfather is sitting near him and giving a lesson to him. Don’t stare at girls and touch them without consent. Little Alex understood that point in his own way. He is an introvert. Grandfather gave lessons to him, and he took them in his own style. He won’t see people directly. If he wanted to see someone, he would see through reflections, either in a mirror or in a shadow. Window glass and mirrors won’t be there everywhere, so sometimes he will picture people through shadows.

 

One day a girl came and asked him for the way to the post office. He didn’t give her eye contact, and by looking down, he said the route. The girl felt something odd and smiled at him. For little Alex, it was cute behavior. But when he grew up and joined college, he was not able to face people. Many thought he was having mental issues. Most of the college students were teasing him and he didn’t want to study anymore in that college. He always wanted to stay in the room alone. It’s been more than a month since he went to college. His family felt suspicious and took him to a psychiatrist. Several sessions were done, and gradually the family accepted his condition. So they made him go for a job far away from home. His grandfather has a tea estate in Munnar. After grandfather’s death, his uncle is taking care of all that. They made Alex the supervisor of that. It was part of therapy as well.

It was morning, and he was shaving near his room. Suddenly, he saw another face in his mirror. It was a girl, Katherine. He got shocked. She came to join today as the accountant for the tea estate. She asked, “Where is the office?” Without turning his head, he replied. Katherine went to the office by saying a thank you!. That face stuck in his head. He recollected her face somewhere but was not sure where it was. Alex took a bath and went to the factory. His uncle introduced Alex to Katherine. She smiled at him; he gave a weird smile. But not on her face. Alex went off then. There was another woman in the office. She is explaining procedures to Katherine. She told about the history of this tea factory and the legacy of Alex as well. Katherine was curious about Alex and asked more about him. Alex is not looking as confident as Legacy speaks. That lady explained about Alex’s condition to Katherine. Katherine now understood his fear, anxiety, and the reason behind the weird smile. There was not much interaction between Alex and Katherine, as she is working in the office and he is looking on the production side.

 

One day he came to the office as his uncle is not well and not able to come to the factory for one week. So Alex wanted to take care of all office work and production work as well. Alex will check accounts daily, and Katherine will explain all details. But Alex won't look into her face. This was a daily routine for a week. Sometimes Katherine is laughing inside by seeing this. She already knows about his condition.

 

So many months passed, and Katherine wanted to go home for some urgent matters. Uncle called Alex and told him to drop her near the bus stop. She sat behind his bike. He started the bike. Through the journey, Alex was silent. Finally Katherine broke that silence. She was talking about casual things. Now Alex can talk to her nicely. He is looking at her through the bike mirror and giving a reply. Katherine got to know he can talk to anyone without hesitation through reflections. Alex dropped her at the bus stop. She was given a smile and went to catch the bus. He made sure that bus started moving, and then he went back to the factory.

 

Months passed, and their bond became stronger. One day randomly, Katherine asked him to take her somewhere. He took her into a hill station. Alex took two glasses of tea from the shop and gave one to Katherine. Tea was not that hot due to the weather. She took one sip and started some Sanskrit lines. Alex didn’t understand anything, and he asked. She took his phone and recorded the same lines on his phone. “Find this if you can,” Katherine said and gave a smile.

 

It was midnight, and Alex was not able to sleep. He took his phone and heard the recording again and again. He was curious to find out what that means. Finally he found the meaning. It was about love, how Parvathi Devi felt the first time by seeing Shiva. For the moment, he was very much confused. The next day, in the factory, Katherine came near to Alex and asked, “Did you get the meaning’?” Alex nodded, but expressionless. “What did you want to comment on that?” He didn’t tell anything. Katherine already knows about him. So she left him without going intense. After two days, Alex took her to church. He said, “I don’t think this will work out. Your family won’t accept it. We are extremely different characters, with no common interests. We won't sync in life. Katherine replied, “I have a common interest. That is you. Without telling the family, how do you know they won't accept? First we will try to tell the family; later we will see. If that is a concern, don’t worry. I will marry you with permission of family only, and they will accept at last due to my stubbornnes. Katherine said so many things. Even though he was not convinced, he came into that relationship. They started talking in depth.

 

It was one year anniversary of that relationship. She changed him a lot. Now he can talk to people by seeing their face. Katherine’ s parents started looking matches for her. But she is keep on rejecting all. She is keep on telling about all these to Alex. Until her family accept their relationship She wont marry Alex. So there is nothing with Alex. The only thing he can do is to wait. Now, the pressure is more for Katherine. So she revealed about this relationship in home. But they didn’t agreed for that. She was keep on showing her stubbornness in home. But still they are not ready for this. At one point Katherine got that things are not going like what she thought. She texted all this to Alex. Alex texted back, “This is reality of life. Live in reality so we can sort out on this. Only thing I can do is what I am doing now. Waiting for you”. There is no reply from her end. He waited so long and finally slept.

 

It was some months before their second anniversary of love. Now the relationship is not like before. Katherine is confused in between her parents and this relationship. She is confusing Alex also. She wanted to marry Alex. But her family is not accepting him, without their acceptance she won’t marry him. Alex don’t know what to do in this. In Alex home also they started looking for matches. One day Alex took her to same hill station, where all this started. Now the tea is hot, because weather changed. Alex started. “You are confused. You really don’t know what you want. You want to be in this relationship. But you don’t want to. You are confusing me as well. If you want to go as per your family. You can, I don’t have any issue. Marry someone your family likes”. Katherine closed his mouth, ”No Alex. I want you. But I want my family as well. I can’t leave you, also my family. We need to fight this. Stay with me. Please.” Alex asked, “If your family not accepting this, what will you do”. Katherine replied, “I won’t marry anyone. I will stay single lifelong. Alex didn’t replied anything. He leaved her and went back alone. Evening Katherine got a text message from Alex. “If you wanted to stay single, why you pulled me in to this. I even told about all these in starting itself. But you never heard. Now you are leaving my life in middle of road”. Katherine didn’t replied anything to that.

 

Katherine is living in a dilemma now. Their relationship deteriorated. They both are living detached. No calls, no messages. Alex went to his home one day and came back after so many days to the factory. Katherine put in her resignation and left the place. He didn't get any information on this. She didn’t tell anything. He asked his uncle about this. Uncle told her marriage is fixed, so she left. Alex became numb. He was living a peaceful life. Katherine came to the frame, given hopes, colors, and memories, and left him in the middle of the road. He doesn't know how to face this. He is not able to cry. It’s been one week since he didn’t sleep well. He is afraid of night, especially sleep time. He lost interest in life. Things are going beyond his control. Old memories eating his brain. No alcohol or drugs are able to clear all those.

 

One day he was drunk and not able to control emotions. With a sudden thought, he took his bike and went to the top of the hill where all this started. He decided to commit suicide. So many reels going through his mind, he looked into the sky. Sky is smiling on him. That smile converted to a white light ended up in lighting. The scene became fully white. The image is blurry, and it ended up in a snow mountain. We can see an apple tree nearby. Alex is meditating under the tree. Sun reflecting in ice and giving an aura around him.

 

Reflecting on history from some years back. The white light from the sky blessed Alex on the top of the hill. It was a thunder. He got an electric shock, and people took him to the hospital. He stayed in the hospital for so many days, and those days gave so many realizations to him. So many people are wishing to live in this world, and he simply decided to end up that. He started reading books in his rest period. IKIGAI, he read this book. That was the life-changing moment. He started his journey to find the purpose of this life. He continued his education as distant. He got on the job, and he is doing work from the location. Each month he is traveling to different places, staying there for some period, and moving to other locations. Now he took a vacation to explore the ice lands. He woke from meditation and looked into the ice; there he saw a face in reflection. That face was connected to the face that he saw years back in the mirror. But it was not her. That was a girl from Rajasthan, Swapna. She is disabled but a traveler. Alex went near her and helped her to stand. Now the shadow is reflecting as two. But the reflection is not complete. So histories should be left incomplete, like this reflection.

 

Shradda’s Moonlight

 

At 11:59 in the midnight Shradda reached central railway station of Dharwar. She came out of the station to get something to reach out her room. She was surrounded by dogs. They were looking her luggage’s and biting like a welcome. Dharwar is not a metro city like where she worked earlier. Now, in Dharwar a big corporate company started their pilot office as a part of expansion in Asia-pacific region. She waited for around half hour, then she got one auto. It was a she taxi. Shradda took the auto and reached room. She kept her luggage’s aside and opened the window. Full moon was visible in the grid line of window. Shradda took a light bath and gone for sleep. Next day morning Shradda went to office. It was a small cabin compare to her previous office. She introduced herself to the people and all given a warm welcome to her. She started her work in some couple of minutes.

 

                       A week passed and she didn’t make any friends here. Previous work made her a numb and her life is in a loop now. Weekends she will sleep as much as possible. This weekend is long one, as some extra Holidays were add-on to weekdays. Shradda didn’t felt to go home, again a big journey to and fro. She slept the whole morning and waked up in the midnight. She washed her face and opened window. Today, moon is a half one. She felt hungry and ordered something in Zomato. Zomato guy came and delivered her order. She smiled and said a Thanks to him. He also smiled and went. Shradda felt his face was not seems suitable for this job in this moonlight. Shradda was becoming lazy day by day. Most of the weekends she was ordering from Zomato only. Every time the same guy only delivering her order. Their bond became stronger day by day. Today was a cloudy day and there is no moon in sky. Shradda talked first time to the delivery guy. Azad, today his face seems to be suitable for his job.

                      A month passed and today is Shradda’s birthday and fallen in a weekend. No party, no friends. She just went to a temple in Dharwar and simply sitting in room. She went for sleep and waked up in the night. She opened window. Today is a full moon day. A bike came near her room. Bike looks familiar, but guy is not same. A well dress up guy came to her door step. Shradda checked through key hole. She saw that face in moonlight. Yes, it’s the same guy, Azad. She opened door and invited Azad inside. Azad came up with some food. Shradda didn’t ordered anything, that surprise was there in her face. Azad prepared food for her on birthday. They had the food and started chit-chat in terrace. Azad was IT postgraduate, which worked in a company and due to toxic work environment left the job. In Dharwar, he can’t live without doing anything. So, he is doing job and searching for other corporate job. Eventually their friendship became stronger.

 

It’s became two weeks Shradda went to her home. Azad is waiting in Dharwar railway station. Shradda’s train came and Azad took her luggage and he dropped her to room. Shradda told “We will meet tomorrow in office”. Yes, Azad joined in same company. Now, Shradda have one friend in office. Her life changed a lot. Bit relaxed in tea breaks, weekends. Next week is a long weekend. Azad and Shradda planned to go somewhere. They went to a beach which is some far. They reached by evening and it was sunset. They were walking through the sand by watching sunset and waves. Casually Shradda asked, “You didn’t give my birthday gift that day. Yes, food was there. But I really wanted a gift”. Azad smiled and nodded. They have roamed there until the moon comes. On the way to Dharwar he stopped bike to take some rest. It was a lake side. Opposite of the lake there was some function ongoing. Full of lights and moon was very beautiful in sky. Shradda was sitting in a bench and enjoying the view. Azad came near to her and kneeled before her. He took her leg to his knee and tied a black angle chain and smiled on her. Azad looked on her eyes and told “This I bought on your birthday. But I felt I was not eligible to give you this gift on that day. But today I’m living a confident life. That is because you. Will you continue as same in my life?”. Shradda was shocked and at same time surprised. She didn’t got any words that time. She told, “I want some time”.

 

Several office days passed. Every tea break, Azad was expecting some response from Shradda. Shradda waked up early in a weekend due to her Mother’s phone call. She asked her to come home as soon as possible. Azad dropped Shradda in railway station. Train came and she said a bye to him. Azad was watching the train until the last. But Shradda never appeared. Train disappeared in the darkness. There was no moon in sky. Shradda got one proposal from U.S. The guy settled in U.S and they liked her very much. Shradda’s mother were forcing her. Shradda was numb like before how her life was. She neither responded to Azad nor to her mother. Shradda’s room window was closed for several nights. Moon was hidden in the curtain. Azad was waiting for her. No messages, no calls. Azad got this news one day. Shradda got proposal from U.S, that’s it. A month passed, Shradda never returned. Rainy season started in Dharwar. Most of the nights were cloudy, moon was not visible.

 

 After 2 years in U.S, the winter is over and they have seen the moon in sky after a long time. A little girl walking through the streets. Her little fingers were hold by her mother. It was Shradda’s daughter. They both were walking and waiting under a tree. Shradda told her “We will wait here baby, until daddy comes”. Girl nodded as Yes. Behind the tree someone watching them. Shradda seen someone was watching them. But face is not clear. We can see his face clearly under moonlight. It’s Azad. He came suddenly in front of Shradda. She became scared and saw Azad’s face. Azad covered her mouth, he don’t want any sudden noises from her. Girl was laughing and she came and grabbed Azad, “Daddy, you were always doing this to mother”. Azad took her up and said “I don’t want your mother to say Yes to any U.S settled guys that’s why”. Shradda hitted him on his shoulder and hugged him. They were started walking to their home. Shradda was holding Azad’s hand and leaned her head on his shoulder while walking. That vision was never disappeared but we can see the full moon in sky.

 

 

When boundaries crossed.....

She was inside boundaries of an army man, her father. She was happy with him. But later she named that as a trauma bonding when she accepted Rhino’s proposal. Rhino and she were classmates from childhood. Later Rhino’s parents moved out of town due to the war situations in the border. Now, Rhino came back to his old town and they met. Rhino is a traveller by the time he left army. He will say to her always that “ I joined army to travel the world”. But in army his duty was in border. More than a year he was in the border. Once he got shot in leg and admitted to hospital. From their he resigned from army and went to Uzbekistan. In Uzbekistan he worked in bike workshop and later he started roaming the country. He reached finally in the old town were he started his life. It was a Sunday, she went to church with her father. It is a part of her disciplined life to attend early morning session of holy mass with her father. After holy mass she came out from the church. She saw Rhino first time after so many years. They both recognized each other. But her father was with her. So they stopped their wishes in a smile. Rhino was behind her for so many days. Once her father was not with her. He went and talked with her. It was an ice breaking session. After that they were frequently meeting and talking. Winter started in the border. Winter is very hard for the citizens and army men. Her father is an experienced army men. So, in winter he won’t come home daily. It was a heavy snow fall day. Rhino came near her house. He saw the rose flower in her garden. He plucked and kept that in his coat pocket. She came out and seen Rhino. She was shocked. Nobody will come near her home because of her father. Now he came. Rhino given the rose flower to her and proposed her. She was in a dilemma. Fear, if father saw him and the sudden shock he given. She didn’t talked anything for a while. When she got in senses, she told him to go. Rhino was confused. Because she didn’t told anything. Then he went from there. The whole night Rhino didn’t slept. “Is that impulse was so quick?”.  Next morning he went to her house. She was not there. He didn’t felt to go back to his home. He went to his favourite childhood place, which he didn’t visited after return to border. On the way someone came and holded his hands. “Take me somewhere”. It was a sudden shock to Rhino. The voice of her took all his pain. He is feeling hot in that heavy snow fall. They went to Rhino’s home and took his bike. First time she crossed the border and they together went to a place. She doesn’t seems fit to that place. It’s like a bird going out from nest for the first time. Outside border, the world is different. But for sure, this wont be the last time she crossed border. After that many times she crossed border. Last day of winter Rhino and she went to Rhino’s favourite place in the border. She realized, what she missed in her life these many years. Border is hardship to her. She wanted to cross border and live somewhere far. She know if winter is over, she can’t cross border anymore. Today is the last day in winter. Rhino given a break to the silence and asked her “What you are thinking?”. She told “I can’t cross border anymore”. Rhino didn’t asked why. Because he already know about her life. He told “Winter is over now. I planning to travel east, far from border. Some water lands probably. I want you to come with me, we will own a small land there. Will roam each season out of country”. She paused for some time and told, “No, I can’t . Border is my home, my father lives here. He lived his life for me”. Rhino grinned and replied “Your father lived for border, may be you were part of that border. If you are staying here, he will make you to marry someone from his circle. Again your life will be in border. Now, if you are coming means, father may not forgive for some period. But we can make him to forgive with our first child. He can take care of our children in his retirement life. We all can live here and there by crossing the border. I am not forcing you. By today night we will leave border, if you are coming means”. She didn’t replied anything to that. Silence for some time. Rhino got frustrated and took her from the place and dropped her to home. While going he told “I will wait for you in church until full moon comes. If you are coming, we will go together. Else, I will go”. She looked in to his eyes, but didn’t told anything. She was watching him until he went out of site. In her life span, she felt like living in this winter only. Travelling across the borders, seen the life. Now, she is a matured bird. She know how to fly. Either she need to live with mother bird. Else, need to cross the border. This is human life, not animal one. She is sitting in chair and thinking. Day light gone slowly, It became little darker. She lighted a candle. Last day of winter, so outside there is heavy snowfall. Rhino is waiting in church. His bike is packed with all his luggages. He saw the full moon in sky. He looked the church once again, the place he seen her first time. He started the bike and looked back again. He saw someone is running towards him. Yes, it’s her. She came without any luggages. So he felt again disappointment. He asked her, “So, You came for a sent off?”. She didn’t replied anything. She came and sitted behind him on bike. He smiled and started his bike. They crossed border and travelled to east. On the way, there were shoot out ongoing in the outskirts. He stopped his bike. Bullets were striking his bike. They both dropped bike and reached under a safe cover place. She felt very fear and sitting close to him. They can hear footsteps around their safe place. Again shoot out started. Rhino took her to some old building. The whole night they spend there. Sunlight came. She is sleeping. So Rhino went out to look after situation. While she walk up, no one is there around. She became panic and went out slowly to look after. The place is full of blood sheds. Roof of building is drizzling with blood. She got fear and went back to safe place. She waited for Rhino. A day passed, he didn’t returned. Mean while army people came and took control on place. They searched all buildings for the citizens and took them to safe place. Army found her also and took her to the safe place. They given food and shelter to everyone. They were collecting details from everyone to help them. They asked her. She didn’t told about her father and home. She told, “ I was travelling to east with my husband Rhino”. Then they asked about her husband. She told he went somewhere and didn’t came back till now. Army people told her, “Don’t worry, we will try to find him. May be hidden somewhere”. It’s been more than a week, She was waiting for him in the safe camp. Winter is over, most of them went to their home towns. Army also leaving the place, as panic situation is over. They asked her, “Where you need to go?. Everyone is leaving the place”. She told “I’m not going anywhere. If he comes, I need to be here”. They told, “You can’t stay here and find him. Better you move to border, from their you can try”. She was not ready to move. But army people didn’t allowed her to stay. Finally She went with them. Their vehicle is moving to border. On the way she saw the bike, which Rhino and she came. Vehicle is reaching near border. The army vehicle got attacked by some mob. They thrown bombs in to vehicle. The situation became worst and the fight lasted more than 2 days between army and the mob. Finally army took the situation on control. The place was full of dead bodies. Entire army from border was there. Her father  was also there. They were packing the dead bodies and naming the box with the details they have collected in the army camp. Her father checking all details in every box and writing where the box need to courier. He saw the box with a name “Petricia”. He written the box need to courier to Border. There was no much details regarding that body . But unconsciously he written it should courier to Border. Then he got in senses and opened the box with a shock. Sudden tears started from his eyes. Yes, it is her dead body. Petricia from border. A girl crossed boundaries to live peacefully. 

 

അഖിലമയൻ

  

നിഷ്കളങ്കതൻ നിറകുടമോ

കള്ളത്തരത്തിൻ പൊയ്‌മുഖമോ

അറിയുന്നില്ല ഞാൻ നിൻ

 മുഖത്തിൽകളിയാടുന്ന വേഷപകർച്ചകൾ

ചക്ഷ്വക്ഷവണത്തിൻ വിയർപ്പിൻ തുള്ളികൾ

നിൻ മുഖമതിലൂടിറ്റിറ്റു വീഴുമ്പോൾ

അറിഞ്ഞിരുന്നില്ല ഞാൻ

നിൻ അധ്വാനം കള്ളത്തരത്തിൻ മുഖം മൂടിയാണെന്നു

നിൻ മനസ്വിനിയെ തേടി നീ അലയുന്ന നാൾ

 എൻ ചങ്കുപറിച്ചെടുത്ത്

 നിൻ കാനനവനത്തിൽ എത്തിച്ചെന്നെ

അവിടുത്തെ പ്രിയതോഴനാക്കി നീ

ഇന്ന് ഞാൻ തിരിച്ചറിയുന്നു

എന്നെ നീ എത്തിച്ചത് കാനനവനമല്ല 

മറിച്ചെൻ ചുടല തീർത്ത

നീ വാണരുളുന്ന മഹായാനം 

Haunting, the mental

It was early morning 05:30. The alarm breaks the silence of mist. In the room a dark figure is visible. It was none other than, the person. Person is inside the bedsheet sitting in the darkness, actually not in darkness, lighted a candle inside bedsheet, overthinking something. Mental wellbeing is not in darkness or in light, it should be mix of that, as per person. We can’t change the world until it changed by others. Yes, person is a harmful human being. But not for the world, towards herself. Now what happened?. Nobody knows except her deep mind, that was haunting something. A cause for something or wanted to be depressed. Last wax of the candle melted and the room became dark. The light taken to  yesterday, home sweet home. The dragon fruits fields were full of mosquitoes. She hitten one mosquito, the blood splattered. Haunting started, the ghost of mosquito. She ran to the room and sat on one corner, started thinking about the death of mosquito. This will be the karma and this haunts me in my future. She started the future, thinking towards 10 decades and started crying the whole night. At one point sleep came and embraced. Before closing eyes, she put alarm for early morning 05:30, to  continue the thinking of the death of mosquito and the consequences. For everything there is a root cause. Here she, herself is the root cause. Now the candle light is not there. She is alone inside the bedsheet. Only darkness is surrounded. Overthinking is itself a darkness, will eat you. She started snoring and went into a deep sleep. After the deep sleep, topic of mosquito death will be over. But the process will keep on moving, will find another topic, will think. This is not inspired from Einstein, this is 99.9% gold lure mental and the haunting will continues soon..

 

Devil of mine!

 

The River was calm. A breeze moving through the surface of  water taking a poppy flower along with that. Poppy flower settled in the water silently. It didn’t disturbed the water and the river is flowing calmly. One fine day, a Homo sapient (he/she) came near to the river and thrown a stone to the river. It disturbed the water, where the waves formed and flowing in a round. The Homo sapient went away by seeing that waves. Waves stopped, but the disturbance stayed for some time and the river became calm again. Another day, the king lion came to drink water and he asked the river “Do you have any concerns?”. River told about the stone throwed by Homo sapient and the disturbance he/she created. As a king, he have the duty to ask that. But the settlement he can't do blindly. Lion throwed one stone into the river. Same like as before the calm river got disturbed and the waves formed and the river became calm after some time. Then the lion told, “I'm not seeing any harm on this, as you are very calm and this disturbance is not staying with you that much time. You are regaining your peace within a short time period. This is a good thing in you and this will help you for the future consequences”. By saying this, the king drinked water from the river and gone to the duties for the rest of day.   

 After some days, again the Homo sapient came and thrown the stone in to the river. It disturbed the river with a wave. By enjoying that, Homo sapient went to the water to take that with him. He/She put his/her legs in to the river and embraced the water. From the disturbed water and spiral formed and a dream vine came out and surrounded the Homo sapient and take he/she to the deep water. The deep water is not calm, its turbulent, more flows, spirals, tidals. The deep water is more disturbed, not like surface. Its not calm, its violent, the mystic river. The dream vine took Homo sapient to the deep and in the journey he/she saw that two stones that have throwned to this river. He/She were forced to take that two stones.  Now deep vine started to tight him more and the Homo sapient holding the two stones in hand and suffering for the breath. His/Her last breath reached the surface as bubbles and the body of Homo Sapient floating in the surface of water. Neither wind nor the breeze that carrying the poppy flower got to know all these. The Homo sapient body without any breath flowing through the surface of water without disturbing water, not any waves rounding through that. Yes, the river is calm and not violent anymore. 

An Approach for LOVE

It was her birthday.First of all,this is not my biopic.I like the way of taking others life.Mean while people like the gossips.So I want to make her birthday as a surprise occassion..All that epic filmy scenes are bit bordem,but it works out the love.I called her at the first minutes of the day..correctly it was 12:00:01 precisely...She attend the call and I convey my birthday wishes..But that was not a surprise,it would turn to a disaster..She cut the call and text me that you are totally mad and blocked me..Why girls are like this?..I dont know..My ego speaks ..Dont go after her...its not my mistake..A sudden impulse came to me and I also blocked her..7 hours sleep make me some change...I think about the situations...Why isn't she recognize my romantic approach?..Did I am not romantic?..Nothing makes the change...After a month my birthday comes and she called me from another number standing in front of my house...This seems to be romantic..Realisations are better much confrontations. This is quiet a gentle approach for love..Calling a person and wake him up at the late of this sleep and an extra wishes is totally a mentle harasement...yes certainly I bullied her.I blocked her...Try to forget her memories...Its not easy ..A simple spark can make it as a fire..Its you!..But she never let me down..Now she stands infront of my house..That is possibly a sweetest approach...Sometimes this arrogant,self sufficient,feminist girls makes me so surprised..